Sitting before a blank page, willing myself to write something meaningful – I glance at my feline pal Loki who is lounging on the arm of my husband’s chair to my right. I know our canine buddy Gus is around here somewhere. I think he is ignoring me because I did not take him for a drive tonight.
In the past few weeks, I have made some progress in my writing efforts and I have been working through a lot of internal blockages to make things like this blog happen. Tonight I am feeling tired and empty. That’s okay, that is going to happen. So today’s post is simple and even a little raw.
I am setting new goals for myself, daring to dream new dreams – although I think some of these may just be reincarnations of old dreams that I have long ignored and buried deep. I started this blog to keep my writing moving forward. The contents will be random, but I hope that you find something uplifting, helpful or interesting in my posts.
As part of my process of creating new goals and dreams, I am going back to my childhood. I didn’t fully realize that I was doing this until I was talking with a new friend today. A few things that I have done in the past few weeks and months include looking for and buying books that I loved as a child, walking barefoot in the grass, visited the local lake and remembered the fun I had splashing in the water as a kid, visited a library and enjoyed simply being in a building with so many books. I have also done a lot of reflecting about the places I loved, the people I enjoyed spending time with and the activities that made me happy as a child.
Just today, I was walking my dog in the park and I stopped at a tree and looked up at it and had a sudden, stopping me in my tracks moment with a vivid memory of climbing trees with my brother and a few neighborhood kids. I stood there talking to Gus (yes, the dog), telling him that if I was a kid, I would have someone boost me up to that limb, climb up the next two limbs and sit on that third branch. I wished I could climb a tree and hang my feet down today without injury. Since that isn’t in the cards, I did it in my mind and I took a picture of the tree from a few angles to remind myself of that sense of freedom I found as a child, especially in the apple tree in our back yard. It was in relaying this instance with the tree to my new friend that I recognized all of the other things that I have been doing bringing me back to my childhood in my mind.
I am working on finding ways to find those happy, carefree feelings of being a kid. I have always been a worrier and a little bit scared of a lot of things. But, I did feel those moments of pure joy as a child – and a few as an adult too. I am ready to chase those moments again. Watch out world – I am ready to have some FUN!
Do you have questions about my journey? Please ask. Tell me about your journey – how do you refresh your dreams?
Musings of A Mysterious Mind 