Time for God

I have put God on hold

Expecting Him to wait for me to be ready.

And when I listen, and don’t hear Him telling me “It’s okay, don’t worry – I’ll wait”

            I worry.

Have I kept God waiting too long?

Did He hang up on me?

Did He give up on me?

Will He answer if I call on Him now?

But what if I am still not ready?

What if I am afraid?

What if He is talking to me and I don’t recognize His voice?

Has He has forgotten me?

Have I missed my chance? My call?

What if I have missed God?

I have been busy putting Him off,

Taking Him for granted,

Assuming He will always take me back and answer my cry to Him.

I cannot change the past, it’s time to let it go.

I cannot predict what will happen tomorrow.

The question I should be focused on is really about today.

            Am I available to God today?